August 17, 2015

On Guard

Without naming names, I want to share how someone close said thoughtless, careless, deeply hurtful words to me, which wounded me for several months before I made the connection that it wasn’t about what this person said or thought about me. The significance of this event was what the enemy did with it, so successfully, and completely on the sly.

But when I finally brought it into focus, there it was…the same attack of worthlessness I’ve been attacked with before, and it always hurts deeper when the offender is someone you know, someone close. They didn’t have their facts right, and they didn’t know what they were talking about when they blurted out their hurtful statements. I understood that much and yet it still hurt me as if it was a full blown planned attack. My own issues with being oversensitive didn’t help, either.

Nonetheless, their careless, stinging words lodged themselves on a fiery dart the enemy hurled at me - and bullseye, it hit the target, wounding a tender place inside my heart. I felt that pain for months (four to be exact, yes - shame on me for being so slow) before I realized this was an attack of the enemy, and I should have seen that sooner. That’s how good the enemy is at what he does.

When I did finally realize that Satan had taken those hurtful words and used them to bring an attack against me again of worthlessness… when I finally saw the truth, the truth did set me free. Those words lost their power to hurt me. I grew a deeper determination to be more aware of the workings of my enemy. The next time, I will not be so slow to know when something is an attack. I will be on guard and I will be more prepared. I will be vigilant.

1 Peter 5:8 
Be sober, be vigilant; because your adversary the devil walks about like a roaring lion, seeking whom he may devour.

Ephesians 6:16  
Above all, taking the shield of faith with which you will be able to quench all the fiery darts of the wicked one.