I wrote in a guest post Older and Wiser at In Courage last year about some things I think I am wiser about now that I am older. I have thought about it some more and realized what a precious time this is in my life. I realized even more the importance of living in the moment of each new day and enjoying now – right now.
I am not young anymore, those days are past, but suddenly, looking down the road of time, it is a little scary to see the future as time narrows and the reality of having lived most of my life leaves me face to face with aging, truly aging and wondering how long I have to live a vital strong and healthy life. I can no longer say that most of my life is still ahead of me when in fact, most of my (earthly) life is behind me.
When you are this age, you have either lost one or both parents, or you are watching your parents struggle with health issues that probably aren't going to go away. Both of my parents have already died. But my husband's parents are both living. One has heart problems and the other is quickly advancing with Alzheimer's. My mother-in-law doesn't know who I am, and has to ask who Randy is, her own son. Some days, she doesn't even know her husband anymore and seems to be living in the memories of over 30 years ago.
I hope to have many years of vitality ahead of me, and not just in physical strength, but in my walk with the Lord, for this is most important to me. All the years I have left, I hope to be writing of Him and declaring the goodness of the Lord. This is what brings me satisfaction and joy. To write of Him, and to know I am doing what He has called me to do. I don't know exactly where He is taking me on this journey, but hand in hand with Him is how I embrace each day.
My days on this earth were numbered by the Lord a long, long time ago. I want to be a good steward of the time He has given me, the life He has given me, and the work He has given me. I trust Him with my future, whatever it holds. Day after day and step by step, even as time begins to narrow, each new day is a gift from God. The joy of the Lord is my strength. He is my all in all.