After listening to someone share how they blew it by losing their patience over a very small matter when their sincere intention was to keep calm in a disagreeable situation, I was reminded how recently a similar thing had happened to me.
Just when I think I am making progress in an area, I turn around and blow it again. I wasn’t looking to lose my control and say things I didn’t mean to say. And yet a simple conversation and small disagreement with my husband spiraled into heated words and I definitely blew it with my tongue. It was so trivial and stupid of me. I blew it again!
I was madder at myself than my husband was. For him it blew over very quickly but I continued to punish myself with the question, why did I do it? I didn’t want to do it! But I did it.
Why am I so prone to sin?
Does that sound familiar?
Romans 7:15 (NIV) I do not understand what I do. For what I want to do I do not do, but what I hate I do.
Why can’t I do a better job of reigning myself in?
Why did I do something I didn’t even want to do?
Do you hear the condemnation ringing loud in this battle raging within me?
There is an answer. There is now no condemnation.
Romans 8:1-2 (NIV) Therefore, there is now no condemnation for those who are in Christ Jesus, because through Christ Jesus the law of the Spirit who gives life has set you free from the law of sin and death.
When I blow it again, there is no condemnation because Jesus took care of that for me! I am so thankful for this truth.
I need to accept this beautiful gift of no condemnation. It is part of my inheritance as a born again believer and child of God.
I don’t want to blow it again. But I probably will.